I haven’t written in a while. And a lot has happened. As those of you who have been following my blog know, I was in an amazing relationship. The keyword there is “was”. I was broken up with unexpectedly midweek and honestly I’m damn near devastated.
I am so in love with him and I know that he too, is in love with me. But he thinks we jumped into things too fast, that we never really gave ourselves time to find out who we are as individuals. That mixed with the stress of having to deal with my anxiety was too much for him. I’m feeling a whole lot of different emotions. I’m hurt, sad, angry, confused, and scared.
I have never been heartbroken before and it’s going to take a lot of adjustment for me to get used to the fact that I can’t hug him whenever a want, I can’t cuddle him, I can’t confide in him, and I can’t hold his hand.
For the next few posts, I’m sure I’ll be talking about this. Trying to straighten things out in my head via this blog. I guess this is the beginning of an adventure, one I never wanted to take.