It is Easter Sunday, and I am at home. I wasn’t supposed to be home, in fact I was supposed to be at a friend’s house but due to recent events it was decided for me that it’d be best if I went home for the weekend. I love being at home and around my family but I wouldn’t be telling the truth if I said that I wasn’t disappointed.
I was really looking forward to spending the weekend at my friend’s house with her and C.H. Obviously though, it couldn’t happen because of the breakup. I understand why she picked him over me to go to her house. He lives in a different state so going home would be hard, and she believed that with my anxiety, and heartache I should be around familiar settings. Which makes sense.
This weekend has been a huge help. Although I spent a lot of it feeling as though I was disappointing my family because I wasn’t my usual bubbly self, the time away from college really helped. I go back tonight and I really hope that I don’t lose all the progress I have made. I’m stronger than I know. You are stronger than you know. But it is so easy to take steps backwards. The battle is nowhere near finished.
“All the hurt, all the lies
All the tears that they cry
When the moment is just right
You see fire in their eyes”
“Now she’s stronger than you know
A heart of steel starts to grow”
“When you’ve been fighting for it all your life
You’ve been struggling to make things right
That’s how a superhero learns to fly
Every day, every hour
Turn the pain into power”
-Superheros by The Script.
Have a wonderful Easter. Enjoy your family. Thanks for reading.