As I’ve written about before I’m stopping my anxiety medication. This is a huge change as I’ve been on it for about a year and it’s a really scary transition. I don’t know what’s going to happen and the unknown can be really scary. Before starting my medication I experienced severe physical symptoms that made me miss a lot of school and just made me feel like all-around garbage. To hopefully combat this I’ve come up with a plan.
Wake up at or before 8:30am everyday. Since coming home from college I’ve wasted so much of my time over-sleeping. There have been days were I didn’t wake up until 1PM, those days I spent the rest of my time awake feeling fatigued. I hope that by waking up by 8:30 every day, I will not only instill a good new habit upon my life but I’ll also have more energy because I won’t be over-sleeping(it’ll also help the transition from summer to 8am classes!). Waking up at this time will also give me more time to apply myself to activities that I find advantageous and fun.
Run at least two miles a day. This one will be tough. Like waking up at 8:30AM everyday this one requires that I stick to a daily routine. To start, this will be more “Run/walk at least two miles a day”, because I seem to lack endurance when it comes to physical activities. I’m a fast runner for short distances but, jogging for long distances? Forget it. So far I’ve been able to run one lap of the track without stopping or walking, which is a great achievement for me. I’ll also have to battle boredom and soreness but hopefully I’ll be able to stick to it because I’ve heard that physical activity is great when battling anxiety/depression.
Cut down on snacks and ice cream. I love ice cream; I have a bowl almost every night which, I know, is not in the least bit healthy. I’m working on cutting it down to having one small bowl a night and then eventually cutting it out completely as a nighttime snack. I’m also going to be cutting down on eating unhealthy food between meals. I think running everyday will help with this. Running should eliminate my need for constant snacking.
Complete housework everyday. There isn’t a lot for me to do during the day when my friends are busy and I don’t have a driver’s license. Doing housework will not only make my parents happy, it’ll also be a source of satisfaction since I get to see the end result and it makes my parents happy. Knowing that they’re happy with me is more than enough reason to do some housework everyday.
Hang out with friends. This one seems easy right? I mean, who wouldn’t want to hang out with their friends? I love my friends and since we go to different colleges, this summer is really important. At every given chance I’m going to hang out with them and I’m not going to let my anxiety/depression get in the way. This has been an issue for me in the past; I’ve made plans and then cancelled because I got really anxious about them. I don’t want to do that anymore, I don’t like to feel like I’ve let them down and miss out on potential fun.
Read for at least an hour a day. Self-explanatory, I think. I love to read and I have a to-read list of over 200 books.
Write for at least an hour a day. Again, this is self-explanatory. Writing is an integral part of who I am and it’s what I want to do for the rest of my life. Doing it a little everyday can only help. I’m also hoping to complete a series of poems using numbers 0-10 as inspiration.
Confidence. This is quite possibly the single most important thing on my summer plan. Confidence is a necessity and I lack it in the situations where I need it most. Gaining confidence can literally only help in my fight against anxiety, depression, and shyness. I’m good at things. I’m not ugly. I am smart. I am compassionate. I am funny. I usually forget these and the end result is sucky.
As I continue this adventure, I hope all that I’ve listed will help aid me and make this summer one of my best yet! Hopefully by sharing this with all of you I will stick to it 😉 . If you have any thoughts/advice, let me know. I hope your summer is going well so far! 🙂