Hello fellow adventurers!
As you know from my last post, I’ve been hanging out with a lot of people and in general having a ton of social interaction. Which is great, I love people and I love hanging out; I’m just really exhausted.
I mean physically, emotionally, and mentally exhausted. So much so that I didn’t even tell my parents about the 4 day weekend because I don’t want to go home. Don’t get me wrong: I love and miss my family. My sister is moving out-of-state soon and I don’t know when I’ll see her next. So this weekend would have been the perfect time. However, getting home includes: my dad driving me to and from college; being in the car for a total of like 4-5 hours; and being sociable at home. All of those things are as you probably guessed: exhausting.
I’ve been pushing myself too hard and pulling myself thin. I mean, I look in the mirror and can’t see myself. That’s how worn thin I am.
My anxiety has also been really weird. I almost feel like I’ve lost control of it, which is scary because I’ve spent so long learning how to cope/control and defeat this monster living inside of me. Yay for taking 3 steps forwards, 5 steps back. -_-
So, I have a four-day weekend. My roommate went home, a majority of my other friends also went home, and the campus is pretty much empty. My goal for this weekend is to write blog posts about topics much more interesting than my life, marathon Law & Order: SVU, and not kill my friends fish(whom I am ‘fish’sitting). Oh! Plus I want to hang out with my friends that are on campus. I just need “me” time. Cause my battery is on 2%; the parking meter has run out of time and I am only have one quarter left.
There’s this minor character on South Park that speaks in metaphors and gets lost in them. I guess I’ve channeled him in this post! Oops.
Until next time,