Hello fellow adventurers,
For most people, Halloween is a time to dress up, get candy, and get drunk. At college, this is especially true. When Halloween falls on a Friday, or Saturday festivities are turned up 100 notches, there are parties galore, and people create two or more costumes. I’m envious of their creativity.
The last time I put any real effort into dressing up for Halloween was elementary school and throughout middle & high school I would “conveniently” be sick on the day everyone comes to class dressed up. There goes my secret, don’t tell my parents. Haha. I love seeing everyone in their costumes but it also makes me extremely anxious. When people are in costume it’s hard to tell who it is, and those that usually don’t talk to you end up starting conversations about their costumes. Then there’s the situation where someone is proud of their costume but you have absolutely no idea what they are supposed to be. Yikes.
Telling people I don’t dress up, nor do I like dressing up for Halloween generates the same responses. It’s hard to explain, especially when I’m put on the spot.
People who wear makeup often say that it makes them feel more comfortable/confident. Those who wear costumes on Halloween revel at the chance to be/act like someone/something else. When I wear more than a little eyeliner and some lip gloss I feel like a clown, or like “a hooker” as I described it to some people last year. I’m talking simple black eyeliner and light pink lip gloss, totally not “clown makeup”. While other people are empowered by makeup, I feel like hiding. I dislike having the stuff on my face because it makes me so self-conscious.
Wearing a costume on Halloween is sort of the same thing. I feel exposed, like somebody ripped the skin off of my body and opened me up to the judgments of others.
Are you dressing up for Halloween? If so, as what?
Until next time,