Dear fellow adventurers,
I have several inner monologues going on in my head, like a continuous cycle, they always find their way back to the front of my thoughts.
For the past few days, I’ve been really down and these monologues keep coming back like stinkbugs in the summer. It’s really upsetting because they get very passionate and involved, and are always things that I want to say to people. For whatever reason though, I’m unable to actually tell the people what I want to say.
I don’t know whether it’s a product of my anxiety or just a character flaw but, whenever I have something important to say, I can’t actually say it the person. My mind goes blank the second I find myself in the right place, right time. Every other waking second, I can remember what I want to and need to say but never when that person is right in front of me.
This is frustrating but it’s nothing compared to having things you want to say to a person but also knowing that they don’t care about what you have to say or that they’re no longer in your life.
I’ve left so many words unsaid and now they’re like snowflakes in a blizzard.
Until next time,