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Metamorphosis | Adventures Of Shy Girl

Metamorphosis – a change of the form or nature of a thing or person into a completely different one, by natural or supernatural means.

It is a fundamental truth that everyone, and everything changes. Whether it’s small like changing your hairstyle, or big, like randomly moving to a new place, with new people, for a new job—change is happening all around us. Which can be a really good thing but it can also be bad. What matters is how you respond to the change.

It’s my belief that as intellectual human beings we undergo metamorphosis several times in our lifetime. We are not the same people we were five, ten, twenty years ago. We are constantly being transformed and that results in several different versions of ourselves.

The college years have always been thought of as being the most transformative years in someone’s life. I believe that to be true because who I was in 2014 is completely different from the person I am today. I consider myself to be a better person now than I was when I graduated from high school but there are also things about me that may have changed for the worse.

In high school, I wasn’t a part of any clubs. I always wanted to but I would get really anxious and back out at the last second. There was one time, my senior year, I went to the first meeting of Photography club. I was so excited but after the first two meetings I got so anxious and busy that I never went again. In just two years I’ve joined two clubs, attend meetings regularly, and hold leadership positions. Still, sometimes I have to force myself to attend the weekly meetings. However, because of these clubs, I’ve met some awesome people who then introduced me to more awesome people and that’s how I found my friend group. For the first time, I have friends in different places. My core group of friends have been so supportive and positive towards the decisions I make and the issues I deal with. It’s refreshing and inspiring.

I’m also more experienced. I’ve been through a lot these past two years: socially, mentally, and academically. My strength and will have been tested on all fronts. In high school, I stuck to what I knew. But in college, I have put myself out there and made myself vulnerable to other people and to myself.  I got stung a lot…and because of that I’m stronger.

I’ve metaphorically fought wars against myself and have literally come out of them bleeding. I’ve learned to put my best foot forward, though, and face each day no matter what the voice inside my head is saying. My mind is almost always working against me; whispering doubts into my ear; reminding me of things I’ve never said aloud; and causing fear/paranoia. With the help of my counselor, I’m slowly learning how to make those intrusive thoughts go away.

I’m also less trusting. In high school, I was slow to trust people. I’m talking snail’s speed here, but once I did—I trusted completely. I used to be really trusting. I trusted that friends would be there for me as I would be for them and trusted that what I told them was just between the two of us. I’ve since learned that friends leave, and they can and will betray you given the first chance. I recognize that I have difficulty knowing what to say to who, and that continues to make communication an issue for me.

But that’s enough about me. What say you, fellow Adventurer? How have you changed in 5 years? What influenced that change? Do you agree with my determination of human metamorphosis? Have you seen another person go through it? Please comment below and let me know!

Until next time,

~K.D.

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One thought on “Metamorphosis | Adventures Of Shy Girl

  1. I enjoy taking a step back every now and again to see how far I have come. This was a good read. It is always good to read about people changing into better human beings and growing from their past experiences. Kudos to you for improving yourself 🙂

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